I had one crisp-bread for breakfast and one crisp-bread with ham for dinner. I’m so greedy. I just eat and eat. Can’t stop. I’m going to be so fat.

F A T B I T C H

I want to scream, and throw something in the wall. I’m desperate. I don’t know what to do. But I show too much emotion if I do something like that. Why do I have to be such a perfectionist? Why can’t I just be me, be happy with what I am?

Need to take a lot of laxes. I need to get rid of all the ice cream, and I can’t throw up, my mum is like a hawk every time I go to the bathroom. “Nemi, is that u? Is u ok in there? U know u have to go IP if u throw up” “yeah mum, I’m fine. I wont throw up. Please let me be alone, ok?” She is so annoying! I have to start taking laxes again. She can’t refuse me to poop.

I'm so frustrated.

xoxo Nemi

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